Sunday, May 07, 2006

Surrender


A significant relationship was terminated by the will of the other party. It troubled me that there was no way to sustain the relationship. As a former therapist, as long as people were alive there was still a chance. I just had to figure out a strategy.

I came up with a great strategy today which entailed allowing the other person to feel in a visceral way, what I felt. This would probably ramp things up and force a confrontation, which could potentially provide some meaningful dialogue. And then again it could blow up in my face.

I started writing up the letter and in my mind confronting the imagined response I would receive.

A Small Voice that I hear if I am willing and quiet enough to listen to, said to me, "you are doing this under your own power. Why don't you trust me"? My pose was that of a surgeon fighting to save a life any way possible, desperately trying ANYTHING.

"Can you let go of your strategies and let Me deal with it? He is my child. I'll take over from here."

I let go of my control and trust the outcome to the One who is the Great Healer.

1 comment:

Jim said...

Hopefully you don't stop thinking. :-)