Monday, December 21, 2009

In the mood


I have been accused of disliking everything Christmas. I am reluctant to hang outdoor Christmas lights, to help trim the home, and to listen to well-worn songs of the season.

Christmas is a difficult time of the year for me. It is close to a new year, with the introspection that it brings. As I get older, I look into myself, and wince at lost opportunities. I ache over damaged relationships. I see out-of-control selfishness in me that dares to be checked. In this time of Advent, attempting to focus on the coming of the Christ child into my life, I feel like a hyperactive toddler peering into the manger for a second before something else distracts me.

I can get in a Christmas mood, but it isn't always a fun mood to be in.


1 comment:

Greg said...

For Me, Christmas is a good exercise in many facets of life. Patience, Giving, Grace, and Time. Celebrating Christmas and the Christmas Season is a simple reminder that another year has passed. It's always good to remember that you get X number of Christmas's in a lifetime, so might as well go all out.

In the moment, it can seem like a hassle. Seeing past that, and realizing that the hassle is part of the journey, is key to enjoying it. Now that I am a bit older, Christmas is becoming less and less about receiving gifts, and more and more about dealing with family and relationships.

Red and Green take the edge off of situations. Twinkle lights put people in good spirits. A little spiced eggnog never hurts either. My Suggestion: Jump in and help take down the Christmas decorations this year if you dare. While you do that, try to think about the good moments from the Christmas Season this year. Spend a minute and go back to that moment. Relive it. Try to put it into long term memory, so you can have that through the year. As we approach Christmas next October/November, you can let them go, in anticipation of new and more exciting memories...

Good Luck in your Journey!